No one could have seen this coming. I do need AA and sobriety and the 12 steps to thrive in life and to deliver on my promises. I was doing OK. But then in therapy we opened up a side of me that was suppressed. And now I feel whole. But that part of me really needed the 12 steps to process things so I could retain the same conscious contact with God. And to keep my emotionater functioning correctly.
And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
It’s actually funny I just realized because my fourth step inventory this time includes the things that I processed more deeply in the last three years in therapy. My biggest resentment is against God, which makes sense. Hence why I started feeling tension about my church.