Ready to explode

Now Filmore florist emails me weekly and I’m getting mail for Stacey Davenport from Padis Jewelry. I don’t even know what to say. This is a disaster! I made the disaster. But it’s definitely a disaster!

Isaiah’s after it again

In that day the Lord with his hard and great and strong sword will punish Leviathan the fleeing serpent, Leviathan the twisting serpent, and he will slay the dragon that is in the sea. In that day, 

“A pleasant vineyard, sing of it!
I, the Lord, am its keeper;
every moment I water it.
Lest anyone punish it,
I keep it night and day;

I have no wrath.

Would that I had thorns and briers to battle!
I would march against them,
I would burn them up together.
Or let them lay hold of my protection,
let them make peace with me,
let them make peace with me.”

In days to come Jacob shall take root,
Israel shall blossom and put forth shoots
and fill the whole world with fruit.”

Oh my soul

You are so not full

Of the empty life

Times full of strife

So let go

Let the kindness show

Feel the energy

Of your sympathy

La da da da da

Make a family.


Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. She looks well to the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women have done excellently, but you surpass them all.” …

I totally sent it over the handlebars

Then after I finished my race I ran back up to watch everyone else. And it was totally the wrong part of the course to yell send it but I like to push limits. So one rider came and as he rounded the switchback I yelled yeah! Send it! And the college people next to me gave me a funny look. For the next rider, when he was near the bigger pack of spectators, between switchbacks I yelled as loudly and as slowly as possible, “seeeeeend iiiittt”, and about 100 eyes peered over at me and the one mom there literally laughed.

Every time

You pull off something incredible, and then everyone is left wondering, what’s next? How is she going to top that??! I always enjoyed filler material of splendid photographs with colors and contrast and people at life. They are always so good!!!

This thing

The wonder of discovery

It wakes me up every morning. And the chaotic sound honestly would put my brain into a sort of chaotic annoyance, and I would never find a grounded answer to what the sound was. I honestly didn’t believe it was a bird, just this strange background noise. So finally one day I spent a half hour pin pointing where it was coming from and got a sighting of the bird. It appeared to be a humming bird. I cross checked videos of hummingbirds and couldn’t find the exactly chaotic weird sound. But this is him! It was a juvenile so I couldn’t get a direct match from my bird book.

For lack of a better word

Good gravy!!! Gracious good! Blimey! Wow!!!!!

An exclamation of surprise, enthusiasm, surprise, and gratitude.

Something INCREDIBLE happened tonight. I can’t talk about it. But it was incredible. I have prayed for this for YEARS. This is worth every second of grief I have ever experienced. This was HUGE.

Today I ate oatmeal with powdered creamer, eggs with beans and a homemade tortilla, Turkey with broccoli Summer squash and egg noodles. I also identified the bird who chirps outside my window in the mornings. It is a gnat catcher. Mine makes this more static noise type of sounds with the really quick chirps.

it isn’t a gnat catcher. It some type of grey bellied hummingbird. He sounds similar to this. They make a crazy sound.

And I always thought this sound was an owl:


I am investigating the Catholic Church! I should have done this a long time ago. I have always felt Catholic. I don’t know why. To me, in my head, they are the closest to God. So I am learning more. I don’t know why I beat around the bush for so many years. They have a meeting on Wednesday mornings that is perfect for me. I am doing this at Holy Cross. It is my favorite church. It always has been. I have a deep respect for that church. For me, this is about peace, serenity, healing, and clarity. The reason I am obsessed with Stacey is because she carries the Catholic spirit. Whatever that is. It could be the Holy Spirit, it could be the Catholic virtues. She is humble, helpful, serves, and integrates herself in her community. She only creates good. It is remarkable.

And balance!!! Seriously!! Balance!!!