It’s day 30. I understand now. I do deserve you! You ARE the best. I don’t know how to communicate my sincerity. But I don’t want to say too much. I did go crazy. And I know why. It was a self-reinforcing cycle of despair. The answer is as simple as is today. And I can do it. I am also smart. I can plan farther ahead than most, and since I can, I should.
I love you. I sort of just want to be homeless with you for a few years. You know? Just camp and climb. Perhaps I can work hard and buy you a house outright. That is what I want to do. And be simple.
On a side note, I think that is why so many people are homeless. They gave up. It’s sort of a good thing. A rebellion. Why are we all still working so hard? Why am I still working so hard? Would you still love me?
I’m sending out a postcard, as shown above. I want to add something about the virus. I think people will think I am inconsiderate. I want to add a positive note. “Remember to get fresh air while we shelter!” Or “Summer healing is around the corner!”